ce cite sal karipap

today mcm nak ckp pasal karipap..

nape nk ckp sal karipap?sebab td brenti isi myk, ade karipap kat kdai esso tu..n beli 2 biji n mkn..

n tertanya2..nape eh agaknye, name kuihnye KARIPAP?

ape significant kari n pap utk dijadikan nama karipap?

pastu teringat satu kisah mase kecik2 pegi kelas mengaji..ade ustazah tu ajar..masa nak sebut huruf 'fa'..die sebut 'pa'..

mmg cnfuse sbb bab2 blaja ngaji n agama mmg x terer..pastu kt skolah cikgu ckp, 'fa'.. tetibe ustazah ni ajar 'pa' n die ade rotan...kiterang dok 2 line.die kat depan, pastu sorang2 kna bace dpn die, sape da abis bole balik...kire ikut turn aa..

so, bile i sebut 'fa' die kate 'pa'..pastu sebut 'fa' lg (sbb nk dgr ckp cikgu skola)..*piap*piap* die pukul rotan kat lntai n cakap 'PA!'...ok, ok..'pa' la jadinye..

pastu i related kan kejadian ustazah tu dgn kisah karipap ni..sbb english version nye is, 'curry puff'

puff tu macam pastry la utk curry puff, curry sbb mmg perisa die akan ade kari n kentang n kdg2 daging/ daging ayam..

so mesti org dulu2 xleh sbt bebetol 'puff'..die jd 'pap'..makanya smpai sekarang ianya adalah karipap!!

yg lg lawak ialah skg da ade evolusi karipap...da ade inti sardin..nape pap yg ade sardin ni dikenali sbg karipap juge..sdgkan pap ni ada sardin..so nk senang kan cte, die jadi karipap sardin!!wakakaka...

but in case korang wndering ape kate wiki pasal karipap ni link nya:-

karipap

origin karipap

happy weekend korang :)

sad

~the thing that i'm so sad about is the fact that you still don't know me~

babbling...

havent been blogging much...hvg the attitude of, y bother!!

but then again, it cud be one of those running away from a fact..running away frm cnfronting the issues that's stressing me out..issues that's bugging me..that's y its easier just to post songs n lyrics..y bother...

well, im sick of it..im tired n im disappointed!

life give u lemons, make lemonades...y the hell bother making lemonades!y?

i know its not true but sometimes everythg's sooo much easier for other people...they have their issues too and maybe some people are just plain LUCKY...well...

its taking too long and im upset...

i refrain from talking bout it or thinking of it..i look at the plastic bags n the book n what's in it n it makes me sick!

there's no one to blame...thats the worse part of it..and all i can do is stress myself out n cry till my eyeballs pop!

i'm alright, i'll be fine...

y bother right?

sigh-ing!

its hard being a girlfren...what more a wife.

and i just wish to say that the buck DOES NOT stop when YOU say stop! it stops when BOTH of us says so!

ah well, it cant be all bed of roses ALL the time huh?

the big one*not that one, the other one*

yup2..da lame gile x post ape2 in my blowg..sorry2..just no mood to write anythg and/or no inspiration or motivation to do so too...

a learned man told me to have sometime with myself and think of the future...he is mighty worried that life is lived on a day to day basis..u get lost and might even get nowhere if u have no point or place to go...

u have to have a PLAN..

the mighty question yet again: "where do u see yourself in 5 years?"...in terms of career, relationship n everything...

seemed like an easy question...well the question is easy...to answer it?...i have yet to answer..

one of the BIGGEST mistake a person can make is; to wake up one day and realise that he is nowhere n if only he had a plan n stuck with it, he would've been somewhere.... *scary*

I MUST ANSWER THIS QUESTION & START PLANNING N LESS WORRYING, DELAYING, MAKING EXCUSES N WHINING!!

N SHA, X MATI JE IF X JUMPE SEHARI...IF ANYTHING HAPPENS IN BETWEEN, ITS FATED!DEAL WITH IT!*mungkin semasa penulis menulis ni, beliau berada di dalam keadaan merajuk/marah*

life's a biotch...

hate it when i'm feeling depressed!its sooo unlike me! wish i could just wash it off away..

its supposed to be less complicated this time,

its supposed to be easy,

its supposed to be laid down when u're ready,

i guess i got tricked,

i guess i'm not as smart as i once thought i was,

i guess i am immature despite how mature i appear to be.

u shun me,

shun me from the realities of life,

always saying i'm not ready,

now, u just throw me into the depth of the sea,

thinking that i'd be able to swim,

how?,

when all this while i've been walking on land.

:(

ENVY you....

ina kate having the feeling of ENVY is good, its not necessarily a bad thing, its how u divert it..

well, hw can i not feel envy and at the same time wish all of u well..of coz i can never hope for anything else but all the happiness n good wishes for all of u n i share ur happiness at the same time.

i envy the fact that u have gone thru it and i hv yet to even have a glimpse of it, n the fact that it has been shoved under the light is NOT helping at all..

well envy is good as long as i can cntrol any urge to destroy what others have that i have yet to call mine but know that no matter how i envy you, my smile and good wishes comes deep from my heart n i do mean it when i wish u well.

:)

its been awhile...

thot that with a BB then i'd be more available to update blog..WRONG! thot that after coming back frm KRABI (25-29 May 10) i'd b more pumped up n motivated to work after the oh-so-long overdued holiday...WRONG!!thot that with a BB i'd be using it more for work that pleasure...WRONG!!

apparently ive been wrong bout lotsa stuff lately..NOT HAPPY!n hopefully this week will be less strenous n stressfull than the last..WISHFUL THINKING!!

no, not being a whiner nor am i being a pessimist...HV I EVER?just relaying the facts!

promise will have a write up on KRABI..can;t put pics cz my camera ws close to USELESS since -u- brought his oh-so-canggih camera..(will get a copy of the pics frm him soonish!)

got this neyo song that i love,love,love at the mo. enjoys!


"Never Knew I Needed"

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing, oh yeah

For the ending of my first begin
(Ooh, yeah yeah, ooh, yeah yeah)
And for the rare and unexpected friend
(Ooh, yeah yeah, ooh, yeah yeah)
For the way you're something that I'd never choose
But at the same time, something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear, I need you here always

My accidental happily
(Ever after)
The way you smile and how you comfort me
(With your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
(When you were here)
You the best thing I never knew I needed
(That I needed)
So now it's so clear, I need you here always
(Now it's so clear)

Who knew that I could be
(Who knew that I could be)
So unexpectedly
(So unexpectedly)
Undeniably happier
Sitting with you right here, right here next to me
Girl, you're the best

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
(Said I needed)
So when you were here I had no idea
(When you were here)
(Said I had no idea)
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
(That I needed)
So now it's so clear I need you here always
(Now it's so clear)
(So clear, so clear, I need you always)

Now it's so clear, I need you here always

better be blind sighted than blind heart...

I would like to share a story I came across...

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind and she hated everyone else as well, except her loving boyfriend who was always there for her no matter what. She told her boyfriend, "If only I could see the world, I will marry you."


One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.


He asked her,"Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. She was shocked at the sight of his closed eyelids. She really hadn't expected that! The thought of looking at them for the rest of her life depressed her and thus led her to refuse to marry him.


Her boyfriend left, dejected and in tears. Days later she received a note from him, with these words stated simply; "Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine."

planning & IT

I stopped planning for IT. Not because I don’t feel like it, not because its not gonna happened, its just not the time yet.

I know planning is everything and it ensures that at least 80% of what u want is going to materialize but not everyone is lucky to have that kind of leisure. Its not something that everyone has. I wont say that u need to be lucky to have it. I’d just say that I don’t have it yet.

Planning n not having it the way u want it, for me hurts more. N not planning and having it happened sounds spontaneous but not all acts of spontaneity is good kan.

Hahaha,talking in riddles is good. Just makes you think about it even more.

All I can say is, He knows best and I know I have a good head on my shoulders. I’d take it personally for awhile but after that I know that it’ll just gna b as awesome as I have ever wanted or imagined it to be because the result that comes out of it, is more important than anything else in the whole wide world!

quotes 1

People who say they sleep like a baby usually don't have one - Leo J. Burke

The hardest job kids face today is learning good manners without seeing any - Fred Astaire

In case you're worried about what's going to become of the younger generation, it's going to grow up and start worrying about the younger genenration - Roger Allen

Your children need your presence more than your presents - Jesse Jackson

One of the obvious facts about about grownups to a child is that they have forgotten what its like to be a child - Randall Jarrell

Level with your child by being honest. Nobody spots a phony quicker than a child - Mary Maccracken

Never help a child with a task at which he feels he can succeed - Maria Montessori

korang tau ke makna frenship?

there are two issues that's bothering me right now..eh, wait..come to thnk of it probly 4..hhmm...

aahh well, there are always ISSUES waiting to be resolved!the wonders of being a legal practitioner..

anywho, one has somewhat to do with my previous post..n the other has got to do with friendship!

haaaiihh...

to me its simple, if u cant stand the person then STOP any kind of communication WITH that person!nape nk KENA jugak tau gerak geri org tuh..PASTU?cari geng n ngumpat...what the hell for?

i hate it when i have to choose sides!!unless if ure AYU!PERIOD!

pada aku korang same je!!dua-dua saje nk cari bnda nk wat pening kepale..if rindu, ckp je la..then jumpa..ke if korang da stat baik then..xde org korang nk talk about...i doubt that!

G.R.O.W.U.P!

yg psl lg satu tu, nnt la update...!kna simpan feel br best =)

another note to self

u know darn well u can't keep ur mouth shut and HAVE to pour everythng out...

redirect it!redirect it your bff, redirect it to ur frens..

or redirect it HERE!

project letting sum STEAM off ready for take off!!

its therapy when u bitch bout work, its therapy when u bitch bout courts, its therapy when u bitch bout ur love hate relationship with ur workload...

u let sum steam off, then u get back to work!

easy peasy!

guilty feeling...

i am sorry..i have done all i could n it is sooooo unlike me to have this feeling og indifference in me..

im passionate about and/or with the things i do and i usually get wrapped up in it and get emotional and all..n i thnk thats good coz it will show..definitely it will..

but im sorry for this part!!im sorry that no matter how hard i try...i just cant get myslef around to feel proud of the end product ive come up with...it took me ages to complete when it should have been done with days ago...n its still NOT fully complete yet!God, give me strength!

i am sorry for whatever the outcome is, i am sorry and ashamed for acting this way!!

it is all circumstances and timing and maybe i am taking things a lil bit way tooo for granted!

i know deep down, i could have done better!i may have done better!

i am truly, deeply sorry and i just hope and pray that what i have in my hands is enough, enough to prove that u deserve the claim u have been waiting for for years!

2000-->2010-->2020

mase kecik2 dulu, if x berangan x sah..i guess sume org pon mcm tu kan..n igt lg..tajuk karangan favourite cikgu2, 'saya sebatang pen' or the likes..n i'll always get great marks sbb cerita dgn penuh perasaan pen tu nyer pengembaraan..tambah plak ngn knowledge doraemon n dragon ball la sume en, dan citer2 little rascal n etc..so mmg adventure abis aa kisah pen tuh..

n slalu jugak..ni plak akibat citer2 cam jetson's n star wars sume..org mesti tanye if tahun da masuk 2000 camtuh,cane lah hidup kiter..mase tu, mmg da budget ade keta terbang aar sume en..takpun, skola pun wat video conference jer..xyah kena actually bgn pagi n siap2 (n for me it was more of, kna gado wit my mum sbb die da kejut 80 kali pon i tak bgn, thn kna pakse mandi, then gado sape nk gosok baju..or shud i say, sape nk gosokkan baju, then kna BEG my dad soh antar sbb i cant naik public transport sbb da lmbt..n ayat plg nyata, even until now terngiang2 is, 'cepat la sha..cepat la sha!!"hehehe..n smpai skola jer sure lmbt..so kna g kutip sampah..),so mmg looking forward gile la the day that tak yah g skola tp dok teleconference jer..

another thing yg PALING SELALU BERANGAN is that my siblings by the time i'm 20 sure da kawin n ade anak2 n kaya raya..so i msti everytime pon nk kna pilih tido umah sape, sbb sume umah besar n berkejar2 nk masukkan duit dalam my bank..sbb kaye en..n i can aski anythg n i'll get it!!fuh, best giler!!(gap kiterang jauh so agak valid la impian nie)...

tp after everythg n all that berangan, here i am..at the office..following one of my dreams of becoming a practising lawyer!not exactly the same as to how i imagined it, lk at tht time, the only lawyer i know was criminal lawyer...so berangan lak gak, wat kes2 criminal sume..hehehe..

tp smlm, my insurance agent jmpe n bg diary..diary nxt year..2010..n i was like whoa!in 2000 i was in skool, n im sure i penah asked myself where wud i be in 10 yrs time..back in skool, mase all the wawasan 2020 hype..trfikir gak, where wud i be when im 37 yrs old..

the funny thg, mase tu ie 17 yrs old..i felt gile nk pk..37..lame GILER BABI LAGI TU..but smlm i was really struck!!if i go back to sasha@17, msti lain gile!!n i seriously tak tau whether she wud be happy n proud of where i am..maybe die akan sedey that, serious aa tak kawin lg?n sure die akan terkejut n marah that she's NOT with that person (tp nk wat cane, God has other plans n sent me an even better guy), sure die akan agak bangga la whn i give her my card (cheh!), sure die gelak guling2 sbb sasha@26 da tak muat sume baju sasha@17, sure die sedey sbb NOT ALL her plans worked out n MARAH sbb she's not the traveller she wanted to be n SURE die bantai gelak guling2 lg sbb sasha@17 ade lg byk duit dari sasha@17 n happier n more relaxed n more care free..

i used to hate it when mummy nk bsg2 kate nnt msti i nyesal all the days i missed out in skool(mmg kaki ponteng) n msti i nyesal for ever wanting to grow up so fast n tak savour all the moment, n i used to hate all the teachers nk kate school days ARE the BEST days of ur life!!

but i guess mmg betol, mom knows best n dgr la ckp org2 tua..hahaha..now, terhegeh2 nk reminisce zaman2 childhood n teenage life!!i wouldnt trade it for the world but what i wd give just to get a glimpse of tht life again..

having said that, hope i'll be more appreaciative of life now as everythg is moving super fast!!n hope nxt year, i'll do a LIST of things for 2020 plak..hehehe..

fallen dreams

“There are only four secrets to stay young – being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.”

nicked this from ayu's(uia) blog :)

dream...where's my dream?

need time to get things sorted!!TIME..where art thou?

motivate the de-motivated ~ME~

some say that i've been lucky for the most part of my 26 years, but i'd scoff off and say, u dun knw sh*t..but if ure going on the basis of the choices ive made and where i am now, i'd say i'm glad..

my mom wud say that i'm lucky coz i get to do what ive always wanted..i'd have to agree..

but something else pops up in my mind..n i start asking myself, is this really what i wna do, or was it cz this is the only thg i know about or i just didnt know better..

my argument is that, i used to be sooo engrossed with what i want coz i had an ambition then, n now that im actually doing it means that ive achieved my dreams..

but arent dreams supposed to be achieved when ure 50 and u can look back at life and finally say, i've done what i've been wanting to do all this years..

in a way, not everyone gets what they want so i've passed that part..

but, what is next?

I DON'T HAVE A WHAT NEXT YET..

n it has become quite apparent coz i get ppl coming up to me and ask me questions like, what drives you, what motivates you..what's ur next step..n i go blank..

i read a fren's blog n she just listed out things that she wants to do and the things she wants in life..BESTNYER..

i don't know wads keeping me from making my own list..(i had a list and it ws quite long..but my laptop got jacked so...there goes the list..i know lame excuse..)

or maybe its just because, i had life figured out and that was exactly what i wanted it to be..but now that life has taken its course and all that i had planned is gone..i just need a break..i dont want to think..i wna just do!see where it takes me..cant ke?

isnt that what life is supposed to be..see where u go..where u end up..?

i'd make a list somehow just so that i'd stay in course..

but i'd still have to figure what ticks me coz now i don't have a clue where i'm heading..

~the~ PAST

i guess u cant really runaway from the PAST..it'll haunt u, it'll creep on ya when u least expect it and inasmuch as u NEVER EVER wna think about it, it'll be at the back of yr head UNTIL U DEAL WITH IT AND ACKNOWLEDGE THAT, WHAT IS PAST IS PAST AND I NEED TO MOVE ON.

moving on is not as easy as ABC..i'd have to give u that.

i didnt expect that id be much affected when i walk down that lane again..didnt really wna think of it..but it happened and now im knocking myself on the forehead and asking, what the hell was i thinking?

ACKNOWLEDGE it!!it was the past,LET IT STAY THERE..

but how cud i have been so DUMB?

am almost certain now that there were tons of people who said behind my back, "sasha nie pandai je ckp, but ure going thru worse!!"

at least now i knw i went thru hell and back n i survived..

just hope this time around, crying isnt on the AGENDA..

hidupku...

i feel ~old~..
ws browsing thru FB (ooppss..!) n saw some of my juniors back in uni's profile n most of them has graduated..yey!great..yup, just forcing the fact that i've been out in the BIG world for quite some time now..

back in uni, they were like,
"kak sasha, best nye u da final year.we all lame lagi kt sini".(they were a bunch of 1st year 2nd semmers or 2nd year...

n now they're starting their pupilage..wut tha...shhheeessh...rub it in oredi..

cepatnye time pass by..2008 came and went in a flash!!n ive learnt more things than i can ever imagined and i hope i've matured since last year...

n mahmoud is growing up so fast.he's splurting new vocabulary every other hour n has been such a lil rascal..cutie pie rascal n come another couple of months, there'll be two more nieces/nephews/niece & nephew(x sure of their sex yet..)

my sis was admitted to the ICU last weekend..coz her B.P was so darn high n docs were worried that she wud slip into a coma..(gile scary k..)..

alhamdulillah they were able to stabilise her n she really2 has to be careful of the B.P..
(if x salah saye, dulu b4 preggers she had Low blood pressure...hhrrmm..)

then my mom gv a comment,
"last two years, it was anna..now ina (preggers la!)"

n ina jumped in n said,
"pas nie sasha..but sasha kna ade sperm donor la..cz die kan xnak cari boyfren....hahahaha"...

wut tha...sape ckp xnak cari?jahat nyer kakak ku ini..cili kang mulut tu :)

xde sebab nk stress pon tp stress gak..

innocence is something i used to have
now, it is something that is too far to reach
i can only reminisce of the innocent times
for it was so many years ago innocence was my precious treasure.

being carefree is something i ponder upon
for having total disregard of your surrounding
is now nothing but a past time.

adulthood was something i despise
even at 25 i act as though i am always 18
but as birthdays come and go
the number in my age continues to change without permission.

i miss those times where
all that matter is that you do well
i miss those times where
the burden of the world is NOT upon anyone's shoulder.

life goes by without a stop! or pause sign
and it goes by without us knowing what happened to it
should we planned our life out?
or leave it be to fate and wait by the corner?
surely spontaneity sounds better in any circumstances.

life is also an open book
don't be scared to add more colour onto it
as a black and white picture
is somewhat a past time ago...

sasha lyna