motivate the de-motivated ~ME~

some say that i've been lucky for the most part of my 26 years, but i'd scoff off and say, u dun knw sh*t..but if ure going on the basis of the choices ive made and where i am now, i'd say i'm glad..

my mom wud say that i'm lucky coz i get to do what ive always wanted..i'd have to agree..

but something else pops up in my mind..n i start asking myself, is this really what i wna do, or was it cz this is the only thg i know about or i just didnt know better..

my argument is that, i used to be sooo engrossed with what i want coz i had an ambition then, n now that im actually doing it means that ive achieved my dreams..

but arent dreams supposed to be achieved when ure 50 and u can look back at life and finally say, i've done what i've been wanting to do all this years..

in a way, not everyone gets what they want so i've passed that part..

but, what is next?

I DON'T HAVE A WHAT NEXT YET..

n it has become quite apparent coz i get ppl coming up to me and ask me questions like, what drives you, what motivates you..what's ur next step..n i go blank..

i read a fren's blog n she just listed out things that she wants to do and the things she wants in life..BESTNYER..

i don't know wads keeping me from making my own list..(i had a list and it ws quite long..but my laptop got jacked so...there goes the list..i know lame excuse..)

or maybe its just because, i had life figured out and that was exactly what i wanted it to be..but now that life has taken its course and all that i had planned is gone..i just need a break..i dont want to think..i wna just do!see where it takes me..cant ke?

isnt that what life is supposed to be..see where u go..where u end up..?

i'd make a list somehow just so that i'd stay in course..

but i'd still have to figure what ticks me coz now i don't have a clue where i'm heading..