mar, i thank u, not for a bad thing but for giving me the chance again...ive been trying to cry since God knows when and today i shed tears..of kesyukuran, of sadness, of guilt, of everything (once u start, u cant stop, can u?) hope u dont mind me posting ayyash's pic here..only to say that, there's maira's face right there!!i was actually quite blur wen i read shuey's post n even wen i was reading urs..not until a few previous posts!! im not trying to justify being a stranger but just to let u know that whatever it is, u do have friends..i too was caught up with cluelessness as how to approach mar..even writing this felt soooo hard..true, there are close friends, best friends even, who turn their back against another friend when faced with hardship, we are nothing but human. But i know for a fact that there were sum of us who wanted to go n see u at the hosp so bad..but then was told that bb ayyash cannot have visitors for fear of infections..
maybe that was so at the beginning and i'll own up and say, meb we(ur friends cud've done a whole lot of other things..) like support u by calling or sms somewhere down the road..but i guess it was right to say we were caught up with the right approach...but then again as friends thats all second issue..the first is, to let your friend know ure there!!
sorry mar that u had to go thru that alone n have new friends beside u instead of old ones but pls, pls, pls know that u n ur bbies n family are always in my prayer!
thank u for posting the post to tell us who're to scared to ask u bout it, but no matter how a-matter-of-factly way u put it, it still made me C-R-Y...
i wanted to soooo hug u mase kt emma's wedding n meb i shud have but again i had let circumstances come into way yet again!!
i am soooo thankful that Allah has made u strong mar. please know that bb ayyash will always be in our prayers.
(sorry that i had to read ur post to know how u felt)
salam mar.
