just turned 26 n trying to love it

i think for the most part of my youthful days (being 26 means one cant cnsider oneself as a youth anymore kan?Daymn..) i couldnt wait to turn 26 and was hoping that time would fly as fast as it can and the year i turned 26 wud be the BEST..

but as we all know, we can only plan so much, the rest is up to Him. He, as always knows better and i am sure and i believe and have faith in Him that HE has better plans for me.

my 26 birthday came and this year was NOTHING like the way i had planned it :(

26 WAS supposed to be the year where i would plan my wedding..26 was supposed to be the year after sooo long two person was supposed to be together..26 was supposed to be the year where i no longer be the only one in my family without a spouse..26 was supposed to be the year where after all that "we" had endured, it finally was supposed to be the year it ended..26 meant that finally both families had accepted the fact that "we're" together..26 was the year "your" agony finally came to rest..and all that came with it..

its funny to think that talentime came out this year..shud i see it as a sign or shud i shrug it off and tell myself, "who the hell are u kidding?"

i would say that ive moved on and the only reason im writing this is so that i know y im so bitter towards 2009..

like i said, i know He has better plans for me and i will be forever thankful to Him for all the things He has given me. Amin.