mommy i love u!!

Que Sera Sera

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, "What will I be?
Will I be pretty, will I be rich?"
Here's what she said to me

[Chorus:]
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera Sera

Since I am just a boy in school
I asked my teacher, "What should I try?
Should I paint pictures, should I sing songs?"
This was her wise reply

(Chorus)
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera Sera

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart, "What lies ahead?
Will we have rainbows day after day?"
Here's what my sweetheart said

(Chorus)
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera Sera

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, "What will I be?
Will I be pretty, will I be rich?"
I tell them, "Wait and see"

(Chorus)
Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera Sera

i can still remember this song like it was sung to me yesterday..i kinda miss the moments i have with my mom when i was a kid..yup, inasmuch as i hated it when my sister used to kid me around saying i was mummy's baby..i am undeniably a mummy's baby!!

i hate the fact that i just have to be *rude* to her or just NOT listen when she talks..but can i blame the youthlike blood in me now..i know i'm blessed wt the coolest parents n she did gave me EVERYTHG i ever wanted or needed(everythg ke?almost la..do u knw anyone else who spent RM 300+ for schools supplies every school year?yup. im that spoilt *itch!)

when i was a kid, she will read to me, she'll tuck me in, she'd sing songs like que sera sera, she's tell me stories of hensel & gretel (it scared me to death coz i was always afraid i didnt have crumbs with me if i ever get lost..).

now when she asks me to teman her to sleep, i'd rather watch t.v than do that, when she ask me to brg her to tesco, i'd rather go n have a drink with my frens..y ah?i hate it when my sisters hurt her..n im actually doing the same freaking thing arent i?yup, not only am i a spoilt *itch..im just ur plain ol' anak *erhak*..huhuhuh..

i'm sorry mom for being such a pain..but i love u n hope u can just wait for me!!wait for me to get loads n tons of money..wait for me to tk u to places..wait for me to have babies so that they will have your *touch*..wait for me!!

i seriously am proud to be urs n i am what i am for all the good things u have instilled in me..i'd reach for the stars coz thats wad u told me i was capable of doing..i'm a better person coz of que sera sera..i was good at math in school cz all the 'torturing' u gave me when i was 4-8 yrs old when u made me memorised my timetables n in turn i was 8 and i taught 12-13 year olds their time tables...hahaha...

im a lawyer now n i care for people regardless of their background cz u taught me so!!inasmuch as i always say i wud not want to turn out like you, i will be you and will do all the things u were not able to and couldnt do..

THANK YOU, Juliah Ismail for being my mom n gvg me such a wonderful name, life and values!

happy birthday, Mummy!

the date : 5th July 2008 (her d.o.b:5.7.1949)

since this a tribute to my precious mummy, im gna write in her favourite colour..RED..
last saturday marked my mothers 59th birthday, it also marked my 1st year anniversary as a practising lawyer, my 1st day as a tutor and it was the 1st time i finally got to meet uncle kenny, spent time with most of the harding sisters n brothers (to date i stil havent met uncle tony).

on saturday was also a day of reminiscing for my mom. stories of her childhood was still afresh in her mind of her days spent with her 11 cousins, the time she spent with my arwah grandma (nana dott, tho i've never had the chance to ever call u granny or met u, your memories and the stories mummy and all told me bout falls nothing short of a great loving lady, wife and mother, al-fatihah), how my tok mail was the gentlemen of his era, how my dad 'pursued' my mom, how they partied like there's no tmrw (ok, im exxagerating a bit here)...

wad struck me was, the stories they shared was amazing but i never got the chance to have that wth my cousins..i on the oher hand had spent with my 'other' cousins who had in fact treated me like 2nd class citizen, having gritted my teeth every now n then for how their mothers n fathers had treated my mother..all out of respect for the elderly..wad i dun get is that y didnt my mom brought me to spend time with these cousins other that for christmas but with the 'other' cousins it was a every other day affair :(

last saturday she was indeed treated like part of the family n is loved by them, and it was all natural..no fakeness at all...we all felt invited..

thank you uncles and aunties and cousins for making my mom's birthday this year a memorable one, i hope we wont wait the next christmas to meet or the next 25 years...

nana dott, tok mail, long, aunty sarah, uncle ahmad jaafar, uncle ka'ai, nenek (al-fatihah)..nana madge (may God bless u)

sasha